Another week completed :) We are 32 weeks pregnant today! WOW! What an accomplishment!
It is such an amazing feeling to know that I am carrying a miracle, created by God, made with the love Jonathan and I have for each other. The thought still overwhelms me! I am still throwing up, nosebleeding and all..... usually I throw up after I eat...it's like my belly gets too full and invades Little Joshua's space, so I get sick and then all is well! The kicking is getting overwhelmingly bigger and more noticeable every day. Sometimes it even tends to be quite painful. He loves to roll around and stick his arms, legs, butt (or maybe his head, we are not really sure) right next to my naval or as far into my right side as he can, oftentimes causing my belly to become lopsided!! haha! He loves to wake up around midnight, right when I really need to sleep and kick, kick, & kick. Even though I'm so tired, we love feeling him move and could sit for hours with my hands on my belly anticipating his next move! We just love him so much already.
This past week I’ve noticed a remarkable shift in my body. I’ve also noticed a remarkable increase in tiredness, breathing is getting harder, my rib (yes, just one special rib…the lower right one) is getting kicked quite a lot more now, and doing anything is pretty uncomfortable anymore. Walking is terrible… sitting is uncomfortable… and laying down is uncomfortable. Curling up in a ball with a pillow between my legs and another supporting my belly feels the best. Sleeping while in that position feels even better! So just imagine every time I get up to go to the bathroom (Which right now is at least = or > 3 times per night) I have to reposition these pillows...Oh, the Joy! :) But we keep reminding ourselves it's all worth it!
The exhaustion is coming more and more frequently too - even when I haven’t done anything lol! Once in a while, especially after eating, all of my energy will drain so fast that the only hope I have in recovering is laying down immediately and falling asleep.
Anyway, as the birth of our son gets closer, I tend to get more and more emotional. This past week I realized that there are so many poems and songs right now that are making me tear up. It's probably because they are talking about unborn babies and about the relationships between dads and sons. They are enough to make me cry like a 2 year old!! haha! So I thought I would share my favorite poem and song right now. I am not posting the whole song though ... just a snapshot to show you why I love it.
The poem I want to share with you is by Evangelina Sandoval and it is titled "Child of Mine"
Child Of Mine
Like the warmth of a loving hug, I feel you everyday.
Tossing and turning about you move every which way.
At first you were a tiny seed in my womb that grew more and more each day.
Now your Dad and I are anxious because we know that you are on your way.
We will wait ever so patiently to see your loving face,
For we know that it will be filled with wonderful loving grace.
You are our little miracle sent to us from up above.
God just knew that we would be the ones for you to love.
I thank the Lord for giving you to me,
for choosing us as your Mommy and Daddy to be.
I want you to know now loving child of mine,
That I will love you and hold you from now until the end of time.
The song I want to share with you is "Just the two of us" by Will Smith
From the first time the doctor placed you in my arms
I knew I'd meet death before I'd let you meet harm
Although questions arose in my mind, would I be man enough?
Against wrong, choose right and be standing up
From the hospital that first night
Took a hour just the get the car seat in right
People driving all fast, got me kinda upset
Got you home safe, placed you in your bassinet
That night I don't think one wink I slept
As I slipped out my bed, to your crib I crept
Touched your head gently, felt my heart melt
Cause I know I loved you more than life itself
Then to my knees, and I begged the Lord please
Let me be a good daddy, all he needs
Love, knowledge, discipline too
I pledge my life to you
Chorus:
Just the two of us, we can make it if we try
Just the two of us, (Just the two of us)....
......Wait an see gonna be tall
Makes me laugh cause you got your dads ears an all
Sometimes I wonder, what you gonna be
A General, a Doctor, maybe a MC
Haha, I wanna kiss you all the time
....I try to be a tough dad, but you be making me laugh
Crazy joy, when I see the eyes of my baby boy
I pledge to you, I will always do
Everything I can
Show you how to be a man
Dignity, integrity, honor an.......
So with all that...here is the picture for this week. My baby bump is definitely sticking out gosh, I am really so popped :) As always, I wonder how popped I will be at about 38 to 40 weeks :)
Thank you all for reading and see you next week!